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One of my dreams in life is to be able to lounge near the beach doing nothing but reading and eating fruits and vegetables. I imported this reading list hoping that I will be able to read most of them before I die

Achebe, Chinua. Things Fall Apart. (I read this one in college)
Alvarez, Julia. How The García Girls Lost Their Accents.
Anderson, Sherwood. Winesburg,Ohio.
Angelou, Maya. I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings. (I read this one already but I could no longer remember it so I should probably reread it)
Arnett, Peter. Live from the Battlefield: From Vietnam to Bagdad.
Austen, Jane. Pride and Prejudice. (I read this one when I was first year in college)
Baker, Russell. Growing Up.
Blais, Madeleine. In These Girls, Hope Is a Muscle.
Brontë, Charlotte. Jane Eyre. (This one to!)
Brontë, Emily. Wuthering Heights.
Brooks, Polly Schoyer. Queen Eleanor, Independent Spirit of The Medieval World: Biography of Eleanor of Aquitaine.
Buck, Pearl S. The Good Earth. (I like this one very much!)
Cather, Willa. O Pioneers!
Cervantes, Miguel de. Don Quixote.
Chaucer, Geoffrey. The Canterbury Tales.
Cisneros, Sandra. The House On Mango Street.
Conrad, Joseph. Lord Jim.
Cooper, James Fenimore. Last of the Mohicans.
Cormier, Robert. The Chocolate War.
Crane, Stephen. The Red Badge of Courage.
Defoe, Daniel. Robinson Crusoe.
Delany, Sarah and Elizabeth. Having Our Say: The Delany Sisters’ First 100 Years.
Dickens, Charles. David Copperfield.
Dickens, Charles. Great Expectations.
Dickens, Charles. A Tale of Two Cities.
Dostoyevsky, Fyodor. Crime and Punishment.
Dreiser, Theodore. Sister Carrie.
Du Maurier, Daphne. Rebecca.
Eliot, George. Silas Marner.
Ellison, Ralph. Invisible Man.
Faulkner, William. As I Lay Dying.
Faulkner, William. The Sound and the Fury.
Fitzgerald, F. Scott. The Great Gatsby.
Frank, Anne. Anne Frank: The Diary of a Young Girl.
Golding, William. Lord of the Flies.
Grealy, Lucy. Autobiography of a Face.
Gunther, John. Death Be Not Proud.
Haley, Alex. Roots.
Hardy, Thomas. Return of the Native.
Hawthorne, Nathaniel. The House of Seven Gables.
Hawthorne, Nathaniel. The Scarlet Letter. (Read this one too.)
Heinlein, Robert A. Stranger in a Strange Land.
Hemingway, Ernest. A Farewell to Arms.
Hemingway, Ernest. For Whom the Bell Tolls.
Hemingway, Ernest. The Sun Also Rises.
Homer. The Iliad.
Homer. The Odyssey.
Hugo, Victor. Les Misérables.
Hurston, Zora Neale. Their Eyes Were Watching God.
Joyce, James. Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man.
Kesey, Ken. One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest.
Knowles, John. A Separate Peace.
Kuralt, Charles. Charles Kuralt’s America.
Lee, Harper. To Kill a Mockingbird.
London, Jack. The Sea Wolf.
Malamud, Bernard. The Natural.
McCaffrey, Anne. Dragonsong.
McCullers, Carson. Member of the Wedding.
Melville, Herman. Moby Dick.
Miller, Arthur. Death of a Salesman.
Miller, Arthur. The Crucible.
Mitchell, Margaret. Gone With the Wind.
Myers, Walter Dean. The Glory Field.
O’Brien, Tim. The Things They Carried.
Orwell, George. 1984. (Nice one very nice!)
Paton, Alan. Cry, the Beloved Country.
Poe, Edgar Allan. Complete Tales and Poems.
Potok, Chaim. My Name is Asher Lev.
Potok, Chaim. The Chosen.
Remarque, Erich Maria. All Quiet on the Western Front.
Salinger, J.D. The Catcher in the Rye.
Scott, Sir Walter. Ivanhoe.
Shakespeare, William. Macbeth.
Shakespeare, William. A Midsummer Night’s Dream.
Shakespeare, William. Hamlet.
Shakespeare, William. King Lear.
Shelley, Mary. Frankenstein. (This one is good to!)
Shepard, Alan and Deke Slayton. Moon Shot: The Inside Story of America’s Race to the Moon.
Shute, Nevil. On the Beach.
Silko, Leslie Marmon. Ceremony.
Sinclair, Upton. The Jungle.
Sophocles. Oedipus Rex.
Steinbeck, John. The Grapes of Wrath.
Steinbeck, John. The Pearl.
Steinbeck, John. The Red Pony.
Steinbeck, John. Of Mice and Men
Stevenson, Robert Louis. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.
Stoll, Clifford. Silicon Snake Oil.
Swift, Jonathan. Gulliver’s Travels.
Tan, Amy. The Joy Luck Club. (This one is cool too!)
Thoreau, Henry David. Walden.
Thurber, James. My Life and Hard Times.
Thurber, James. The Thurber Carnival.
Twain, Mark. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn.
Twain, Mark. The Adventures of Tom Sawyer.
Wharton, Edith. Ethan Frome.
Wilder, Thornton. Our Town.
Williams, Tennessee. The Glass Menagerie.
Wright, Richard. Black Boy.
Wright, Richard. Native Son.

For the past few days I feel tired everytime I wake up in the morning.

I read a book last night that gave a name to what I am feeling right now. It’s called burnout.

The author said that there are two general reasons for a burn out. There could be external reasons and internal ones.  (http://onetruelovenetwork.com/content/view/5/6/)

I have to agree with the author that the reason why I feel so burned out is the fact that I have low self -esteem.

Right now I feel like shit. I feel trapped and useless. Most of all I feel incompetent.

The external factors that I have identified are my crazy environment and my physical well-being.

I just wonder how I could remedy the internal factors though.

Perhaps I should go to church more often. Read more positive stuff and also affirm myself daily in the mirror.

Like saying “you are getting better and better everyday!”

Oh well wish me luck!

I knew that I was in trouble the moment I started crying and called out the name of my dead Grandmother.

Every time that I am in distress I find comfort in calling out to my Lola.

Lola has always been my refuge when she was alive.

Even now when she is already on the the other realm she still manages to comfort me.

My crying and calling out her name always has a therapeutic effect.

This would be my nth blog. I opened this blog to be able to communicate with the world and not just to people that I already know. Right now I am feeling down and uninspired. I am hoping that with this blog I will be able to hone my writing skills and at the same time express myself without editing because I am confident that I will be shielded by my anonymity.

I do not have anything explosive or vengeful to say. I just felt though that in most of my blogs the readers are people that I know and though I want to truly express myself, I am still constrained by the idea of what these people will say.

In my anonymity I will have a piece of freedom that I crave.

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