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I wish RP would call me because he misses me and he wants to see me.

I wish RP would fall in love with me intensely that he would do great and good things to make our lives better.

I wish I will earn 80,000 per month by November.

I wish I will get a teaching load that would pay 25,000 per month.

I wish my blog would earn fifty thousand a month the legal and ethical way.

I wish I will reach my 115 pounds goal by December 16, 2008.

I just want to have fun with my job.

I want to have a high paying job.

I want to work in a law related job.

Lord, make it happen.

My target race is December 7, 2008.

This is in compliance with my to do list.

And my birthday gift to myself so i should increase my earning capacity to have more money for plane fare and training materials.

The current boyfriend is coming home.

If there is one thing that I am learning from him it is the cliche that states if there is a will there is a way.

I read from the girlfriend of my ex that they are planning to save for their wedding.

And I smiled. The first thought that I had was that finally i will be truly free of them.

And I smirked too. I thought, Aha as if that guy could stand a commitment.

As for me I am focusing on improving myself. Improving my net worth. And enhancing my skill.

I am a bit hurt but I just have to accept that it was never meant to be. That we had good times and worst times and that it is over.

And as I keep saying to myself I just have to move on.

I went into a funk for two days.

I should be happy because a day before that I passed the CSC Exam.

It downed on me though that there is a huge possibility that my life would be perennially boring.

Wake up, go to the office, attend aerobic class, watch tv and sleep.

i want a better life.

I passed it yeehey!

Unlike women who when confused, deranged, generally bothered or just their usual finicky self who would blog or call the phone three to just yap about their issues, men have this annoying tendency to hibernate.

Had I not been used to men acting like this and for a number of times made the unforgivable offense of not letting them be, I would actually ask the person I am having a relationship with with the offensive question of “Are you ok?”

In fairness to the ex he has taught me well. That men when they have issues should just be ignored. You need not even have to make them feel that you are there for them least they accused you of pressuring them. Just let them be.

As much as I am well aware that the “ignore them” formula works perfectly, I am actually pissed.

I always wonder why they could not just talk about it. I actually know how to listen. But then again men are wired differently than women.

Always keeping things to themselves sometimes I wonder why they do not explode.

What is there to share though when most of their problems are personal and it does not concern you or the relationship.

So let them be.

First day back on the job and I was late for 45 minutes. Blame my sister for resetting my alarm clock, that my watch is fifteen minutes late and i seem to be incapable of sleeping well.

I can complain all I want but it would not change the fact that I spend more when I wake up late and add to the fact that salary deduction is indeed a reality.

So first order of battle, come on time for work.

Then lose 20 pounds in a month.

Then apply for a part time job.

Read something exciting and sensible.