Criminal or Commercial What have you?

The first time I took the bar no one asked me what would I specialized in if I passed.

But recently two people asked  me what kind of lawyer would I like to be.

Specialization is something that confuses me.

Let me deal with what kind of lawyer would I like to be.

1. I want to be a lawyer that follows the Code of Professional Responsibility to a tee meaning opening an account for client’s money and no bribing the judge.

2. I want to be a very patient lawyer meaning I will explain to the client what his case is all about and what will we be doing.

3. I want to be a very very very intelligent lawyer and an exemplary strategist.

4. I want to be a bombshell lawyer.

General Practitioner First but definitely a litigator.

 

The Funk

I went into a funk for two days.

I should be happy because a day before that I passed the CSC Exam.

It downed on me though that there is a huge possibility that my life would be perennially boring.

Wake up, go to the office, attend aerobic class, watch tv and sleep.

i want a better life.

 

I passed the CSC Professional Exam

I passed it yeehey!

 

Order of Battle

First day back on the job and I was late for 45 minutes. Blame my sister for resetting my alarm clock, that my watch is fifteen minutes late and i seem to be incapable of sleeping well.

I can complain all I want but it would not change the fact that I spend more when I wake up late and add to the fact that salary deduction is indeed a reality.

So first order of battle, come on time for work.

Then lose 20 pounds in a month.

Then apply for a part time job.

Read something exciting and sensible.

 

My Ideal Husband

I want a loving, responsible, intellectually stimulating and financially well off husband.

I want him to be kind, generous and a good example to my kids.

I want him to be athletic.

 

My Resolve

Today my resolve is stronger.

I really want to pass the BAR Exam and be a lawyer.

I am tired of the feelings of frustration and the sense of being belittled by other people.

Besides I want to apply what I have studied.

 

Work

I work for the government. I’m officially working. I’m back to my old job. And I like it.

 

Yeeha!

Maybe I will own a laptop soon! Yehey!

 

Rumor Has It

There are a number of people who pass a number of gossips about me lately. Basically disparaging me to a lot of people. Yes it affects me some of it are true others are just plain cover up fo the things that she has done.

I guess what I just need to do is to ignore it and just to rtive to be a better person.

 

Burn Out

For the past few days I feel tired everytime I wake up in the morning.

I read a book last night that gave a name to what I am feeling right now. It’s called burnout.

The author said that there are two general reasons for a burn out. There could be external reasons and internal ones.  (http://onetruelovenetwork.com/content/view/5/6/)

I have to agree with the author that the reason why I feel so burned out is the fact that I have low self -esteem.

Right now I feel like shit. I feel trapped and useless. Most of all I feel incompetent.

The external factors that I have identified are my crazy environment and my physical well-being.

I just wonder how I could remedy the internal factors though.

Perhaps I should go to church more often. Read more positive stuff and also affirm myself daily in the mirror.

Like saying “you are getting better and better everyday!”

Oh well wish me luck!